a year later... i guess i am not happy unless there is chaos involved..

a year later... i guess i am not happy unless there is chaos involved..

02.18.12 (11:59 am)   [edit]
in my last post i was talking bout being nervous bout meeting the family, that has came and gone. I have since called off the engagement, were still together trying to work things out. i was angry about alot of things that happened and instead of talking about them or whatever your supposed to do when you feel that way i went and found someone else to pay attention to me to make me feel pretty. he isn't perfect but he is amazing though brash and seemingly unremarkable i would be proud to call him mine. I for some reason don't have the heart to end things like i think i should i feel bad since i really don't have any really relevant reason i feel like there should be cheating or something involved not you were ignoring me so i fell in love with someone else and i have been supporting you for four years get the hell out of my life type of thing. I don't know though chaos seems to be the story of my life.